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“Echoes of Loss and Hope: How Evanescence Soundtracked My Grief”

“Echoes of Loss and Hope: How Evanescence Soundtracked My Grief”

1. “Like You” from The Open Door

“It is about something that’s hard to even talk about but feels good to write about,” Amy Lee once said of “Like You,” one of the most personal songs on The Open Door. “It’s about my sister who passed away when I was a little girl. I was six years old and she was three. It’s affected my life and definitely affected my music writing, and it’s made me who I am. It’s one of those things that happens early enough in life that it forms you. I think in a lot of ways I made it a thing that I can use in a positive way in my life. I’ve learned from it and grown up, and I’ve always felt older. Twenty-four sounds young to me, it’s weird.”

“Like You” arrives just past the album’s midpoint, a ghostly lull amid hi-voltage guitars. The opening piano chords—simple, aching—let Lee’s voice float free, almost as if she’s singing across a vast emptiness. When the drums finally kick in, they don’t puncture the mood; they cradle it, as though honoring a memory too fragile to batter.

I connect to “Like You” on a deep level. I was four when my sister passed at six—too young to hold onto shared memories, yet old enough to feel a permanent ache. Whenever Lee’s voice soars on the bridge (“I long to be like you, lie cold in the ground like you. There’s room inside for two…”), I feel that same bittersweet lift: grief entwined with a yearning for reunion.

2. “My Immortal” from Fallen

“My Immortal” stands as one of Evanescence’s most enduring heart-rending ballads, its simple piano-and-strings arrangement laying bare every drop of raw emotion.

“These wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase”
Here, Lee captures the paradox of memory: the more you try to outrun it, the more it clings.

“I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me, I’ve been alone all along”
In these lines, hope and despair intertwine—she knows the truth of absence even as she fights against it.

Originally written on piano by Amy Lee and Ben Moody when they were just fifteen, “My Immortal” first appeared as a late-night demo featuring only Lee’s voice and a MIDI keyboard—no live strings. For the album’s “band version,” producers Dave Fortman and Ben Moody added guitar, drums, bass and a new string arrangement by David Campbell (building on Graeme Revell’s earlier orchestration), yet the final mix still centers Lee’s piano and vocals, preserving its confessional intimacy.

The bridge—where Lee admits that she’s “been alone all along”—resonates especially deeply. For me, it mirrored the loneliness of growing up with a shadow of her absence: surrounded by family’s love, yet carrying a solitary grief only I could understand. Just as the strings swell under Lee’s final refrain, I find catharsis in the release of remembering and honoring her, note by note.

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EVANESCENCE’s AMY LEE Reflects On Loss Of Her Two Siblings: ‘I Will Always Be Their Sister’

EVANESCENCE’s AMY LEE Reflects On Loss Of Her Two Siblings: ‘I Will Always Be Their Sister’

During an appearance on the “Hardcore Humanism” podcastEVANESCENCE singer Amy Lee reflected on the losses of two of her siblings, sister Bonnie and brother RobbyBonnie died in 1987 at the age of three from an undisclosed illness, while Robby passed away in 2018 after struggling with severe epilepsy for most of his life.

Speaking about her approach to understanding “darkness” and “light” in her life, Amy told podcast host Michael Friedman Ph.D. (as transcribed by BLABBERMOUTH.NET): “I’ve been through some stuff in my life. I lost my sister when I was six, and then, in a completely different world, so many years later and in a totally different situation, I lost my brother, just in 2018. It’s like when the worst possible thing that you could ever fear comes true. I’ve seen the moments when that can happen. And I’m not alone in that. To me, going through that, surviving that, being able to continue on and find a way to make your life make sense afterward, that’s really what I’m talking about. It’s not that I like spooky things and darkness because it’s fun to play with danger. It’s that the time that I feel the most afraid or alone or whatever in my life is when it’s like it didn’t happen. It’s like the world just went on living like nothing ever went wrong.

“I remember sometimes feeling really weird on beautiful, sunny days when I was a kid, because I felt like it should always be raining when I was grieving my sister,” she continued. “It’s kind of the same thing. To be able to talk about it, to be able to admit it, to be able to face it and say, ‘Okay, it hurts this much, and I’m thinking about this stuff.’ To be able to spill my guts is the thing that makes it better, and especially to be able to share it with other people. That’s why music started for me in the first place. Processing the biggest wounds and the biggest challenges that I’ve been through in my life and in my heart, being able to make that into music that I love, and then, in turn, the even greater gift is to be able to see other love that music and have it speak to them on a level where they feel that it’s doing something good for them to not feel alone in that moment too is such a blessing — something so healthy and so good. I think it’s important to face the darkness, because it’s real — it’s really there — and if we can’t face it, then we’re just living a lie and letting that stuff bubble under the surface.”

Lee also talked about how what she feared most was not letting go of the pain of loss of her two siblings, but rather forgetting the pain of loss. In this way, Lee felt that letting go of darkness would undermine her ability to feel connected to her authentic self.

“I don’t wanna move past [the loss of my sister and brother],” she said. “I will always be their sister. So on a level, I feel like the thing about it is it’s not that I’m ever gonna get over it. It’s not that I ever want to completely get over it, because I’m never gonna let them go. They’re always gonna be with me — really, literally — and part of that is the feeling of pain of losing them because I still love them so much. But the other part of it is laughing at memories and remembering the fun that we have too. I don’t wanna just remember the people that I lost by their death. I wanna remember their life. I wanna remember our time.

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